wildfires: by Alissa Moreno

when you get the feeling it's not in you

and all those times remind you of what you can't do

remember me, i've lost and loved and i am not giving up

though i've been torn, i've been used, i've been fooled, i've abused all my rights to living

Cuz we survive, we get by

we take those hits and we learn to fight

we collide, but we don't die

trying to burn out, don't you put out

wildfires...

Let them come

Let them burn up everything that's made me

till the end i swear i'm never gonna let them break me.

though I've been crushed, i've been killed

i am scared but God i will keep on tryin to mount this crazy hill

we survive, we get by

we take those hits and we learn to fight

we collide, we don't die

tryin to put out, dontcha put out

when there's no doubt how it's gonna turn out

let them burn out, dontcha put out

wildfires.

the thumping of an empty dream

i know my feelings are probably magnified in light of the christmas season, but more than ever am i desiring to fall in love. As cheezing as it sounds, it's true. Love is in the air. The more I listen to christmas music, the more I realize how much i love Christ and he loves me, the more i see couples wandering the streets at night admiring the xmas lights, the more i realize how much i want that. I want that man that desires to be with me. That man that i know would give everything he had for me and i for him.

now i know in due time things will work themselves out, but it's so hard. I always knew that i was a hopeless romantic. Someone once told me that when i loved i would love hard. Don't think that i'm dying here or extremely impatient, because i'm neither. I can wait, I have no choice. But i'm at that point where it hurts inside because I want to fall in love so badly.

It's exciting to think of the day when i will and what that might look like. But until then, i will sit listening to the thump of an empty dream.

Happy holiday season to everyone.

misrepresentation of the church and God.

i was watching the news last night and once again, i saw that church from the midwest out protesting at soldiers' funerals with their signs and listening to other protests about how much God hates fags, etc. I hate that they do that. I hate that they give Christians a bad rep. I remember hearing a statement once that said Christians are the number one reason people are atheists! These people are that cause...or a big part of it. So i went to their website and posted a comment, because i figured, i'm going to use my voice for good and let them know what i think.

this is what i wrote:

as a fellow christian...how can you sit and do the things you do (i.e. pickett at funerals) and say that it's biblical? how can you say that God hates fags? how can you use that kind of language? Last time i checked and i'm pretty sure any other christian would agree...the gospel is about compassion, Jesus' ministry was about helping the poor, those in need, not tearing them down with harsh words and ridiculous acts. The words that you speak have the ability to speak life and just as well, death. And the image that you portray to the world as christians does not in any way represent the image and character of Christ. It is sad to me to think that you could use your influence and media coverage to truly testify to God's goodness and desire to have a personal relationship with his creation. Yea people in this world do wrong things, but to act like you're exempt from that is ludacris. We are all sinners, we all fall short of the glory of God! But the beautiful thing is that God is a redemptive God. He is gracious. And it our job to share that GOOD NEWS with those who don't know it, but it isn't our job to save them...that is for the Holy Spirit to do, to work in their hearts. From out of the heart, the mouth speaks. The words that you are speaking to this nation, reflect your heart. And the only thing that is apparent to those that see you, is that you aren't full of the characteristics of God, you're full of judgmental and hateful comments. There is no condemnation for those in Christ Jesus. But to be in Christ is to transform your heart, your likeness to be like His.