Some fear change while others welcome it with open arms. Graduation is one of those moments in which some embrace the uncertainty of their future like it's the only thing they have, while others fall into a dreaded and weary cycle of doubt and misdirection. I on the other hand fall somewhere in the middle. Cliche as it sounds, I am excited to some extent as to where the future will take me. I know the plans that God has for me are far greater than those that I can imagine. However, it becomes quite disheartening when one is oblivious as to what those plans actually entail. This time for me, the past couple weeks, has been refreshenly relaxing yet anxiety-filled as I struggle to find a second job. Trying to coordinate another job with my current one, the bills I need to pay, my future school plans, etc. is considerably overwhelming and causing my hair to turn grey. I don't want to get stuck having a job that I don't really love just for the sake of having one. Trust is a word that will have to consume my thoughts. Perseverance was my word for the first 4 years of college, so I guess that it is time to discover a new facet of God's power and grace. Trust is something I don't like to do; it is a word that holds countless painful memories; trust is something that God will have to show me so that I can learn to follow. As for now, I say farewell for I am too exhausted to continue the ramblings of an insomniac. ciao.
